Moon River

This was my first ever experiment with video using my Canon Rebel t3i, and I learned a lot from this little adventure. I definitely need to invest in some stabilizing equipment, as well as FINALLY getting Adobe Lightroom. But I had a great time, and am so proud of my sisters for being such troopers and going all out and getting wet and dirty to get the perfect shots!   //  

music // the honey trees models // meaghan and heidi mcclain

Moon River

models // meaghan and heidi mcclain

The Best Things

The best things in life don't seem particularly special at the time. They just seem like good things, good times, good laughs. It is only when you look back, when you remember, in contrast to the present, that they are marked as truly remarkable. You see what a precious and unique thing you had, even though you didn't know it. My desire is to live each day to the fullest. To love deeply, despite the possibility of pain, to be vulnerable, and to laugh those aching and silent laughs that cause tears to stream down your cheeks.

I guess I am just feeling rather nostalgic. And while the past can remind us of the things we loved, the future is uncharted territory. It is full of joyful moments, of beauty, of life. Yes, and pain too. Isn't it wonderful how pain and sorrow can be used to magnify joy and peace? That even though the worst may happen, the Lord uses it to work for good, to create something new and strong. We can't even fear Death, or Evil. No creature, angel, demon, or human can take away our Life, our forever with Jesus Christ. I want to live every day appreciating my time here like the precious gift it is. And I'm not saying that I always do, I can be as pessimistic and cynical as the next person. But man, I can do and be anything through the strength of the Lord. There is nothing to fear, because it is already planned. Each day has a purpose.

And that is a comforting thought. 

Only 7 more days left in Statesboro!

Change

This has been a different, difficult season for me. My best friend/boyfriend had to move back to Atlanta in March to pursue a job opportunity, and most of my friends moved away after graduation in December. I was promoted to a full-time position at work, which kept me busy, but many of the moments in between were full of fear, loneliness, anxiety, and hopelessness. 

Loneliness, as miserable and frightening as it could be, was what I needed to go through. I needed to be in a place of such extreme need that the Lord was the only one who could minister to me and sustain me. Many days I went home discouraged and hopeless, but somehow the Lord used those tears and sleepless nights to bring about a joy and peace. What the enemy tried to use to harm me, the Lord used to bring about good. 

I know that I will not be moved. I may be weak, unashamedly so, but it is only through the power of the Holy Spirit that I can be victorious and live abundantly each day. I cannot live in the future, the present is the only reality we ever dwell in. As humans we don't like change unless it suits us, unless it works for out benefit. As crazy as life looks to me right now, and all the millions of things that have to somehow come together, I can rest assured that everything we go through is an opportunity to trust the Lord, to let Him show Himself faithful and true, no matter what the outcome. Living in joyful expectation, with a thankful heart, is the only way to live. Our relationship with Him is the only treasure we can take from this world, the only thing worth pouring everything into. 

That being said, change is on the horizon for me. I am transferring back home with my company, but into a new position. I will be living at home again for a little while, until I can get on my feet or until B and I can start a life of our own. Being close to my family, to my sisters, and Ben, is worth all the hassle of having to transfer. It's just...scary. No, it's terrifying. The future freaks me out. Change freaks me out. I like security, have consistency to count on. But I know this: 

"In peace I lie down and sleep, for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety." Psalm 4:8